Found by God

I recently secured a mortgage offer and then shortly after, secured an improved offer saving me £1700. So I’m happy because I am winning. Then unexpectedly the mortgage offer was withdrawn and the final offer lost me £1000 of the improvement. I’m still £700 winning overall, but I’m unhappy in losing. I could fight for the so called loss of £1000 but the terms clearly say any offer can be withdrawn prior to completion.

To fight would mean conflict, and acceptance that I can only find life when I’m winning the most I can. It would mean running away from the formative experience of losing. Perhaps I need to learn to lose, for my body to be trained to lose so that I’m able to find life in the losses which will surely come in life.

I think I’ll avoid the conflict and appeal to their better nature for my so called loss and find life where I am foundbyGod where the Lord gives and the Lord takes away.

Filed under: Uncategorized on January 10th, 2012