holding on for death, letting go for life

Two of the evergreen trees in my garden have died in the severe winter of 2010. They held onto their leaves and paid the price. Immediatley next to one of them is a delicate tree that loses it’s leaves in winter and this one is sprouting new buds. How come such a delicate tree survives [...]

the trees wait for the future

Looking at the trees in England now in winter, everything appears to be lost. Sometimes I get this feeling about life and wonder what on earth the future holds, how will it work out. At times like these, action is futile if not dangerous. I find that waiting and watching works best.
Confidence in the future [...]

mercy carriage

I keep finding new and easier ways to relate to God. If there is a God then I must know him and know him well. Spending time with God shapes me, changes me, prepares me for daily living on earth. There are many ways I have been equipped by God to live through the issues [...]

gaining ground

Colds and sore throats in our house today. When this happens I like to let go of just about everything and attend to the basics only. Any essential work that needs to be done is done but I do it at a slow pace. All non essentials are delayed for a later time. The slow [...]

here today gone tomorrow

I guess that most of the reasons I am alive will pass away. My family, work, friendships. All the things I enjoy will all eventually pass away from me or I from them. This thought spurs me on to invest in a life that will never pass away from me or me from it. Investing [...]

unguarded heart traps

When my heart is unguarded I speak and I can get caught in traps. It seems to be that for all time it’s been important to say little and avoid what they call banter.
I find that there are traps around waiting for me to speak something and be the one who springs the trap. I [...]

rescued from the hyper-tension crash

Had a big tension crash this week. Went to a conference for the week and as ususal I get hypertense when I concentrate. I tried in the moments to stay relaxed and enjoy what was going on but it was always too late. I found myself tense almost all the time even though I tried [...]