I particularly dislike it when people press me or try to manipulate me in order to gain control over some things. I think I overeact and push back a little or a lot.
But today I realised that some of this might be because I fear losing control over the way I think things need to [...]
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I notice that in a relationship, the thing I take for myself destroys the thing that is given to me and the destruction is ten times the gain.
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I have noticed that young children automatically value the moment they are experiencing and if they are offered friendship they accept it. They play with the box the toy came in until we teach them to be consumers. Then as they get older they get lured away from this God given ability by all sorts [...]
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I’ve been away reading for a couple of days. The strange thing I note is that famous spiritual writers like trappist monk Thomas Merton and Henri Nouwen and even Augustine, all seem to have struggled to find significance in their life journey. Even when in religious places they still struggled to find where the value [...]
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Saw a young mother with three small kids today in Ikea. They were infront of us for breakfast but Ikea had discontinued the cereals for kids and they were faced with a refusal for breakfast other than the cooked version. The young mum asked the server to serve us while she negotiated with her kids [...]
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When controversy hits I run to my journal book and I get it all out before an audience of one, you oh God. This saves me from humiliating myself before the world. It’s called being humble.
The alternative is that when controversy hits and it’s always un-announced, I react making stupid comments, doing stupid things. I [...]
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There are many things in my reflective journal that I can’t put in my blog. There are things I need to get out, get said. In my journal I am writing letters to God, notes, complaints, demands. I read them all at the end of each week and realise the stuff that’s been moved from [...]
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I have mud at the bottom of my life that sometimes gets stirred up. Deep resentments and grudges that I know are still down there, never dealt with. There was a stirring up recently and I went into a spin reliving all those old things.
Am I to deal with it, how do I deal with [...]
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The things I reflect on, these divine interventions are not meant to be blogged and then move on. The value of reflection or reflective blogging is that these glimpses of life work over and over again in me, feeding me and shaping who I am. (You too)
Today I have tight schedule, in fact looking ahead, [...]
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I notice that sometimes, others achieve things in life by means I would never use. They succeed in every way people recognise. They appear to win, time and time again, calling for more applause from people. Often they are nice people too which makes it harder. Am I jealous, well I’m not sure I want [...]
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